You’d lose your mind trying to understand mine.
Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to because it’s not for them. I talk about my plans to Florida to certain friends and some family. But I don’t tell them every single step I take and why. It gets exhausting trying to prove to people that this is my path when they don’t see it. I’m following my gutt and I’m taking a gamble! But, I have faith in it and it’s all that matters.
I’ve gotten to the point where I’m finally not going to live my life for other people but me, myself, and I. The crazy thing is, that makes me happy. But what’s crazier is that people don’t understand why I’m not doing something under their terms. I now REFUSE to please others at the expense of my own emotional well-being.
Before, it was me trying to live up to expectations that made family proud and didn’t have to worry. But, inside knowing something was wrong.. I felt lost. Then, things were going wrong… And I’d fail them even more. One main reason is because I was doing something I knew wasn’t right but couldn’t figure out what at the time.
Even now, It’s stressful feeling the judgement and some disappointment (even though they’d never say that) from the people who were suppose to be my cheerleaders. But it’s more of a breath of fresh air in this world where I’m 100% Mik. Then, after a while I am used to people just not understanding and I stopped trying to explain myself when I realized people only understand their own level of perception.
Teach people the magical person you are!